Thursday, January 19, 2006
Just a Girl Loving God

Labels: prep, goth, emo, hardcore, jock, brain, nerd, etc. This may be the one thing that really gets to me. I don't understand how some people can place others into neat little boxes. Everyone's different! What happens to those people who don't really fit into any one box at all? People are complex and incredible and deserve more than a one word label for people to tell who they are.

Basically, there are a lot of people gunning for me: all the time. My parents have really been helping me through it though. I don't understand why people find some deranged sort of satisfaction in watching me fail. But the point is that they do, and it really hurts. All I can really do right now is just pray and ignore it, but each time someone throws those stinging words out at me, it tears at something on the inside. It hurts even more that someone I thought really loved me seems to be turning into one of them.

Sometimes I just want to get away, but just stepping outside your front door people glare at you. It's weird walking down the street when every person you pass is someone who hates you. But even though most people seem to hate who I am, that doesn't mean I'm going to change myself to please them. I will continue to be all God really wants me to be: Erika; an artist, a student, a teacher, a sister, a daughter, a friend. Just a girl loving God.

Labels: Erika's Life Updates, Rant