Monday, March 31, 2008
Soap Operas and Sewing Machines

I feel as if I am living in a soap opera. Seriously. My friends are all either falling in love or going crazy. It's ridiculous. Actually. I guess all I can do for now is cling to the fact that God is always faithful, no matter how many things in my world begin to change.

"Faithful"--Amanda Falk
Here we are again Lord
We've had this conversation a dozen times before
And it always comes back 'round
to the things I am always looking for: to be assured
When I can't be sure

But God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

Can't try to understand it
Wrap my mind around the wonder of it all
When everything is crumbling
Tumbling in my world, I start to fall
And you are near me
It's not so clear but

God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

And we run to you
There's nowhere else to go
The one thing that I know

And we'll come to you
when there's nowhere else to turn
The one thing that I've learned

Oh, God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

Amen.

Labels: Lyrics, Spiritual Life

Sunday, March 30, 2008
Be my Everything

I was thinking about what Rod Alm said today in church..."God wants to fill you even more than you want to be filled. Simply surrender to him". God, fill me with your spirit.

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my wathcing
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything

You are everything
Jesus, Everything

Labels: Spiritual Life

Sunday, March 09, 2008
I'm Procrastinating

Have you ever had that when you don't want to stay awake, but you don't want to go to bed? I'm experiencing that right now. I don't feel very well, and I'm tired, but I don't really want to sleep. So I thought I would post some random pictures from Vancouver on here.

Tasha and I with the giant bear in the Calgary airport.

Walking by the ocean in Victoria.

Erika B (Elika), Erika (me), and Brittany

Clayton, Tasha, Erika, and Ryan

Labels: Pictures, Random

Saturday, March 01, 2008
Reflections

Okay. Ever since I got back from Vancouver, life has been busy. My basketball team was in conference playoffs today, and we placed 2nd so we advance to regionals! This means I will have basketball every day next week...which is okay, because I love it.

Vancouver was amazing, but I can't help but feel a little disappointed. I saw change in some people, but I saw such doubt in others. It's very discouraging to me, because I'm trying my best to pour my heart into these people and there is no response to God, guidance, or wisdom. How can you go away on a mission's trip and say you didn't see God anywhere? This was a clear sign of people not close to God and not used to hearing the Holy Spirit.

The trip was a struggle for me, but not in the same sense as it was for others. Most students went in nervous to talk/deal with people on the streets...I normally don't have a problem stepping out of my comfort zone. It was hard because I went being "on" the mission's team, but not really a "part" of it. This trip was not for me: it was for me to benefit others, in my class and on the street and for the glory of God.

It was a very different than Mexico. In Mexico, we all had that desire for spiritual fellowship...we still do now that we're back at home...but in Vancouver, it seems like there aren't many that are on fire for God...there are some that don't even care. I desire spiritual connection with the people in my class; I want them to go deeper with God; I want them to understand what it's like to truly be part of Christ's body. I suppose for now it will just take a little more time, a little more prayer, and a lot more faith.

Although there is all this discouragement surrounding the trip, I have been given a lot of hope through my trip to Mexico. Experiencing the spiritual connection that we Mexico girls share gets me excited to take other people there. It reminds me that God always has bigger plans, so I don't need to worry. I just need to listen.

Labels: Rant, Spiritual Life