Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Getting Over the Past Part II: Falling Out of Love

coming to terms with myself
no more regrets
100% assurance
of faith, of salvation
I won't be left behind
by you or Him
He loves me
and you don't
i see that now
i am beautiful
and He loves me
you can't take it away
and i know that it will stay
if i fall out of love with you.



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I'm happy...

Labels: Poetry

Getting Over the Past Part I: Falling in Love

Mark 13:13 says, "All people will hate you because you follow me, but those people who keep theri faith until the end will be saved."

"If you love Jesus, you're going to face rejection and hostility sometime in your life. The world just doesn't get Jesus. It can't grasp or appreciate his high authority and value. Jesus said the world just can't accept God's Spirit of truth--it can't understand him (John 14:17). As a person who loves Jesus, you are going to face challenges, but you can stand firm. There are going to be tough times--when you're worn out and it's not easy to keep believing, serving, and being committed to him--but you can stay steady because you have Christ in your heart. He said, 'I told you these things so that you can have peace in me. In this world you will have trouble, but be brave! I have defeated the world!" (John 16:33). You can count on bad things happening just the way God says they will in his Word, but his kingdom will never end. He'll reign forever, and you're going to be a part of it. Stay in the Word every day so God can keep fueling you with his perspective and power to persevere."

What I'm learning: don't dwell on the past. If I let the past decide who I am today...well then I wouldn't be a very good person. This is about giving up grudges, excuses, failures, everything...God's taking care of that. I am living my life for him without looking back. I am learning to accept myslef the way that I am...and I am realizing that I don't want to change at all. Just wanna be me.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Saturday, July 08, 2006
I'm Back (Finally)

I've been feeling like such an outcast lately.

A fat, ugly, depressed outcast?

Yes. It has been bothering me, thank you.

Am I this lame that I would have a conversation with myself?

Yes. Haha. Where are your friends when you need them?

I don't know. Out, being consumed by things. Boyfriends, money, materialism.

So...what have you been doing?

Choosing life for real. Living for God. Being consumed by Him and nothing else. How about you?

Mmm...pretty much the same. It's a beautiful life, isn't it?

Sure thing.

It can get pretty lonely out here, can't it?

Yeah...but I like it. Room to breathe, time to adjust to the light.

But don't you still wish you had a really good friend around?

I do. He's right here.

But don't you want someone to share in those experiences He gives you?

Yeah, of course I do. I pray for that person every day. But I haven't found them yet.

So...what do you want to do? It's like 11:35. You're leaving early in the morning.

So are you. Want to have some father daughter time?

I'd love to.

Labels: Random