Thursday, November 30, 2006
Maturity

Here's one of the many things running around in my mind right now: is immaturity (or maturity, on the flip side) a choice, or is it somehow involuntary?

Once again, this is relevant to guys in my class. But it goes for some of the girls too. (This includes me, for the record).

People keep saying, "Oh, they'll grow up eventually" but when is that? Maybe they have already passed the stage of maturity and are still (for some reason) choosing to remain immature and make themselves look foolish...because "it's more fun this way. You can't have as much fun when you're mature." (This is an actual quote from someone.)

It amazes me that 15 and 16 year old young men (ahem...I suppose I should use the term "boys") can be so childish. Mentally, I believe they really are 15 and 16 year old young men...somewhere. But on the outside, they may as well be six.

And while I'm talking about them acting like they're six I am generalizing and stereotyping and perhaps even prejudging them. Do I really know them? When I speak with some of them one on one I can see that there is a lot more to them than meets the eye. But how foolish of me, how childish of me to do this! How can I expect them to be mature and pull it together if I can't even do so?

Last Sunday Josh (Neudorf) spoke at church for a while, and he blew me away. He spoke with such clarity and maturity. I could identify with most of what he said, because I had been there as well. He reminded me a lot of myself. And he reminded me to remain passionate and on fire for God (which is what I am trying to do).

But why is this so hard? I want God as #1 in my life and I'm having such a hard time keeping him there right now. It is definitely taking more effort than before...but I need that. If it wasn't hard, I don't think there could be an award as amazing as there is.

Some other stuff is really bothering me right now too...with some certain people I guess. I don't want to see them take the wrong path...and it scares me because just last night I think I caught a glimpse of what could happen to them somehow.

But I don't know. I'm just going on about nothing. Because I have everything in the world to say, but I can't get it onto paper. Can't put it into words. Which is strange, because this is usually so natural for me. Right now, the muse is gone, and I just can't write.

Labels: Rant

Saturday, November 18, 2006
Big Pet Peeve!

People who tell you what they're giving you for Christmas! It's so annoying! I want to be surprised...but nooooooooooo...

My mom always does this. She gets so excited with presents. When she was a kid she always peeked at her presents and tried on clothes her mom bought her before she was supposed to receive them. I do not do this. I think it's so stupid. I want to actually be surprised when someone gives me a gift (whether it's good or bad).

Today when my mom and I were shopping there was this jean jacket and she's like "do you like this shorter style of jacket?" and I was like, "No, not really." And then at home, I go and give her my laundry and she just can't help but say it: "I bought you a jean jacket for Christmas and I don't know if you'll like it! Should I return it?" And I just went: "Mo-om! Stop ruining surprises!"

It's so annoying she did this at my birthday too. I knew every single thing I was getting. I told her it was pointless to wrap it because it wasn't a surprise anyway.

Labels: Erika's Life Updates, Rant

Friday, November 03, 2006
I ♥ Katie!

Thank you for saving my blog titles!!! lol! Now I shall go back and fix all my titles because that just really bothers me!!! <3 Erika

Labels: Random

Thursday, November 02, 2006
Don't Judge a Book by its Cover

Before I start writing this, I would just like to say that this blog is so annoying. Why will it not let me post titles??? Everyone else's works...oh well.

Just when you think you have something figured out doesn't it seem that all of a sudden something radical happens?? And maybe this isn't all that "radical"....but if you knew this person...it seems pretty big.

Jonney...he annoys me so much. Because, according to Relient K, he is what we call an "Ape". He calls girls "woman" and it seems that all he likes is video games and souped up cars. And paintballing. He is that guy who makes fun of you for (gasp) actually reading the reading assignment and (gasp) actually studying for a test. He is that guy who groans when he finds out he accidentally worked ahead in math.

He is that guy who smashed your $120 calculator!!!! (Not on purpose...but things like this happen to him often because he has that "I don't care" attitude).

I was disappointed, but not mad at him....but still, he should stop being so careless, he is just making a mess of himself and his life.

But then this "Ape" writes you a really nice apology letter. Totally unexpected and out of the blue. Matt Thiessen and the guys in Relient K really are geniuses. I mean really. They predicted this: within every ape, there is a Mr. Wonderful...sometimes you just have to dig a little deeper to find it. Why couldn't he always be nice like that? Why can't he treat everyone like he treats Erin?? What exactly is holding him back? What would he lose: his reputation as "the guy who doesn't care"??? And why would you want that anyway???

I don't think he does want that...I think he's hiding...

Hmm...what a strange young man.

Labels: Rant

Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year?

Today Mr. Nickel pointed out something to our class that we all kind of secretly realized: the fact that in general the girls are at a high/positive level for the most part and the boys are at a low/negative level for the most part. Our class is like the great divide when it comes to girls and guys...girls on one side of the room, guys on the other. And no, it is not because we are all grade 3ish and still think there are cooties, it's because we're not on the same level.

And when we do all decide to hang out...that's all we do, hang out. Intelligent conversations going on=0. Instead of the girls pulling up the guys and motivating them we sink down to their level. And why should we?

It's like us girls are standing on top of a table and trying to pull the guys up on top. But they're so much stronger for some reason and it is so much easier for them to pull us down.

So here it is: our second year in high school...do we make it a sophomore slump...or have that comeback of the year as "the golden class"? I guess it's up to us. All I know is that I'm tired of bringing myself down to that level and making myself look so foolish. And I'm tired of everyone else looking so foolish too. There is no need for that.

Are we going up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears, put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light...

Labels: Lyrics, Rant, School