Sunday, August 24, 2008
Drumroll, please...

And the award for the most neglected blog goes to...(insert drumroll here)

MINE!

Hmm...that wasn't really surprising now, was it?

But have no fear! I am back (and hopefully to stay)!

...

Summer is almost over...and I must say, it wasn't really what I expected it to be, but it was really good, and I learned a lot.

So here's the thought for tonight:

I was thinking about what it says in Matthew 5 about being "salt and light". Light is something I think we all can envision quite easily: it is visible, it shines, it can not be extinguished by the darkness. But salt? I had never thought about it before, but I realized that I have no idea how it would look for me to be salt in the world.

I've found two interpretations on it:
1) Salt was used in ancient medicine as a tactic to heal wounds faster. So therefore, as a Christian, to be salt means that I am meant to rub myself deep into the wounds of humanity, as an aid to help heal the world's scars.
2) Salt was used as a preservative, so as Christians we are to preserve what is pure and right in the world.

What do you think?

Labels: Spiritual Life

Monday, May 05, 2008
Painting

This is a poem my friend wrote for English class...I think it is so lovely, so I decided to share it with you. I wish you could hear it read outloud, it's so much more effective, but for now, take some time and soak up the truth of the words.

Painting
I’m drowning in red.
Can no one see I’m coughing? I’m choking.
I barely breathe.

And then I draw,
I’m moved.
Slowly, cautiously at first.
Allowing the tomato coloured paste to ooze from me.
It feels good, it feels familiar
And I begin to rest in this motion,
In this colour.

Suddenly it begins again,
That violent shake I’m sure I’ve felt before.
I’m dabbed, my body is throbbed again.
I’m losing too much red.
I was fond of this color!
I liked it as it sat here on me,
I got used to the smooth flow of its texture across my limbs.

Swiftly I’m moved off the page.
I feel like I’m free falling,
And for a moment I forget my newfound self pity.
I’m plunged into water so cold that my lungs feel as though they might implode.
It hurts again.
For goodness sake,
What could this torment possibly be good for?
I catch myself asking that question over,
And over,
And over.

The water rushes through me, past me,
I’m sloshed, swished, slammed up against glass walls.
The comfortable crimson is being stripped from every gape in my body.
Every trace of that former rouge is firmly rinsed
As I pray for oxygen.

I feel the beat of my motion,
And in a fleeting moment I question the origin of this madness.
There must be a purpose.
Who is holding me firmly with my head under water like this?

Finally, I’m up out of that prison.
Rid of that uncomfortable place,
But I know this isn’t over.
I’m dipped slowly into green and brought to the page,
Again I give of this color I wear.
I add to the vague memory of my prior colour,
My former struggle with that crimson shade.
With hesitation I allow the emerald to seep deep into the page
And off of my body.

I begin to feel something beautiful.
It grips me by the throat and sings to my blood shot eyes.

This must be beauty
This must be grace
This must be forgiveness
This must be meaning and purpose.
I can hardly breathe as the artist lets me glimpse
At the life he has been creating.

It is only for a moment and the image is gone.
The illustration slowly fades from my memory..
…I don’t mind.
I am captivated by the thoughts of the Beholder,
The One creating raw life and loveliness.
This must be peace.

An astounding relief washes warm over me,
I am learning not to fear.
I will encounter cold water again and again,
And the colours still awaiting application.
I remain in anticipation of the unknown.
For now I must simply trust in my position as the tool…
and not as the Beholder.

Labels: Poetry, Spiritual Life

Monday, March 31, 2008
Soap Operas and Sewing Machines

I feel as if I am living in a soap opera. Seriously. My friends are all either falling in love or going crazy. It's ridiculous. Actually. I guess all I can do for now is cling to the fact that God is always faithful, no matter how many things in my world begin to change.

"Faithful"--Amanda Falk
Here we are again Lord
We've had this conversation a dozen times before
And it always comes back 'round
to the things I am always looking for: to be assured
When I can't be sure

But God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

Can't try to understand it
Wrap my mind around the wonder of it all
When everything is crumbling
Tumbling in my world, I start to fall
And you are near me
It's not so clear but

God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

And we run to you
There's nowhere else to go
The one thing that I know

And we'll come to you
when there's nowhere else to turn
The one thing that I've learned

Oh, God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

God, you are faithful
When my faith is gone
When I am so fragile
I know I'm not alone

Amen.

Labels: Lyrics, Spiritual Life

Sunday, March 30, 2008
Be my Everything

I was thinking about what Rod Alm said today in church..."God wants to fill you even more than you want to be filled. Simply surrender to him". God, fill me with your spirit.

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my wathcing
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything

You are everything
Jesus, Everything

Labels: Spiritual Life

Saturday, March 01, 2008
Reflections

Okay. Ever since I got back from Vancouver, life has been busy. My basketball team was in conference playoffs today, and we placed 2nd so we advance to regionals! This means I will have basketball every day next week...which is okay, because I love it.

Vancouver was amazing, but I can't help but feel a little disappointed. I saw change in some people, but I saw such doubt in others. It's very discouraging to me, because I'm trying my best to pour my heart into these people and there is no response to God, guidance, or wisdom. How can you go away on a mission's trip and say you didn't see God anywhere? This was a clear sign of people not close to God and not used to hearing the Holy Spirit.

The trip was a struggle for me, but not in the same sense as it was for others. Most students went in nervous to talk/deal with people on the streets...I normally don't have a problem stepping out of my comfort zone. It was hard because I went being "on" the mission's team, but not really a "part" of it. This trip was not for me: it was for me to benefit others, in my class and on the street and for the glory of God.

It was a very different than Mexico. In Mexico, we all had that desire for spiritual fellowship...we still do now that we're back at home...but in Vancouver, it seems like there aren't many that are on fire for God...there are some that don't even care. I desire spiritual connection with the people in my class; I want them to go deeper with God; I want them to understand what it's like to truly be part of Christ's body. I suppose for now it will just take a little more time, a little more prayer, and a lot more faith.

Although there is all this discouragement surrounding the trip, I have been given a lot of hope through my trip to Mexico. Experiencing the spiritual connection that we Mexico girls share gets me excited to take other people there. It reminds me that God always has bigger plans, so I don't need to worry. I just need to listen.

Labels: Rant, Spiritual Life

Monday, February 11, 2008
Vancouver: Day 1

Hey guys!

1. I miss you.
2. This place is awesome.
3. The weather is definitely nicer here.
4. God is AWESOME! (Bump this to the top of the list!)

I just wanted to say a quick hi to everyone...hopefully you are checking this even though I'm gone. I plan to update at least a couple times during the week.

I don't have a lot of time to write tonight, but I just wanted to share with you something a good friend of my said to me before I left.

"God, keep them safe, but don't allow them to be safe."

I'm praying this for my entire team, and for everyone at home, too. This trip is all about stretching and stepping outside of our comfort zones. Being safe, but not being safe with ourselves, letting ourselves take chances and risks that we might not have thought possible.

Today we went to East Hastings Street. I don't know how much you guys know about it, but it is basically a street where the homeless live. Lots of drugs, prostitutes, and depravity. We had the opportunity to hand out clothing and socks to some people, and to talk to them. It was really great, and reminded me a lot of being in Mexico and the times I shared with you guys there.

Peace in Christ.

Labels: Erika's Life Updates, Spiritual Life

Sunday, February 03, 2008
Love

I'm not sure if anyone from my class reads this anymore, but if you are, aren't you excited for our mission's trip??? I can't believe we're leaving in less than a week!

To fill the rest of you in, the theme verse we have picked is found in Matthew 17:20...

"I tell you the truth: if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you".

To that I just wanted to add something I came across as I was reading this week in 1 Corinthians 13. Interesting, because it's a very commonly read chapter of the Bible, but I came across a few verses at the beginning of the chapter that everybody always seems to skim over.

"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing".

This was a good reminder that we need to come together as a team in love, because despite any amount of faith or anything else we may possess, we will have absolutely nothing if we do not have love toward each other and toward others.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Saturday, January 19, 2008
Silence

Hello friends; it's been a while. I want to share something from my favourite poet in the world (Bradley Hathaway!) with you:

Silence

What’s happening here?
I was once so alive and now I’m so full of dread and almost dead
Show me your wounded head that has lead to communion with the father
But where did he go?
His presence seems farther and farther away each day but I’m trying so hard to steer his way
Yet still lonely and confused on this cold, hard ground I lay

Speak to me wise mouth and say:
“it’s all good kid, it’s nothing that you did, and though it feels like I’m not here with you right now just be still and silent and listen for that sound..
Shhh..
Did you hear it?
Listen again.
Did you hear it?
That silent voice that just spoke nothing, that is me, I’m listening to your plea with open ears Counting all your tears flowing from your irritated eyes
Searching the skies looking for that hope that beyond there lies.

Oh you young worrisome sparrow, find rest
Lay your battered head upon my omnipresent breast and make it your nest
No strong cold wind could ever blow and carry you from this your home
Look around, see the life shooting up from the ground
Spring colors springing fourth and celebration of your trusting

It’s a constant process this is
Growing you into the person you are to become
But when you sense the setting of the sun know it is only rising and has just begun
Now go forth, sing songs of faith, and lift up others in the midst of this race
And if you can’t keep the pace or lose sight of my face
Know that I’m always near so you need not fear
But don’t worry about all that right now
Just sit here and enjoy the peace I offer in my silence
When I am silent I am listening, and not abandoning.

That is a beautiful vision.

Labels: Poetry, Random, Spiritual Life

Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Insanities...

I can not even believe how busy I am. I am so upset by it right now. Not because of the stress it's putting on me in some areas or because of the times I can't come to youth or hang out with people I haven't seen in ages...but because it is stopping the next thing.

How can I ever do what God wants me to do when I am being constantly bombarded with all this other stuff? I am glad and blessed to be given all these responsibilities, but right now I'm not quite sure how to handle them as I move forward in my faith, as God asks me to do the next thing for Him. Please, God, show me how to do the next thing.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Monday, July 16, 2007
Get a Move On

Summer is terrible for blogging. I feel awful for the people who read my blog; they must think I've disappeared off the face of the earth! But honestly enough, in a way, I have: tomorrow is officially the third day I will have been home during the summer! And it's not even a complete day, because I think I'm leaving for Dallas Valley in the evening. But all in all, the summer has been enjoyable...and full of surprises.

All of July I have been struggling with feeling like everything is dull...like I'm just going through the motions day after day--you know the feeling: get up, eat breakfast, brush teeth, blah, blah, blah...

It is only now that I am realizing that for a while, this is okay; in fact, it is a good thing! All this drudgery has had some effect on my spiritual life...at least for the first two weeks of July. I just hadn't been as vibrant in my faith as I usually feel. It wasn't really a time of neglect from God...but I felt like the connection wasn't there as deeply as normally.

However, last night I was reading in My Utmost for His Highest (a book I suggest everyone should get, by the way) and I had this revelation of sorts.

In 2 Peter 1:5-9, it says, "For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins".

I love how you can read a passage a million times, but always find something new in it! This time, the word that struck me was "add". I know I have inherited the Divine nature (verse 4), but now I must make every effort to focus my attention and form habits, give diligence, concentrate. No man is born either naturally or supernaturally with character or habits, he has to develop them! We must form new habits and expand our character on the basis of the new life God has put into us.

I am learning that all this drudgery the test of my character as a Christian. We are not always meant to be illuminated versions of life...but we are to take the common stuff of ordinary life and use it to exhibit the marvel of the grace of God. I am learning that the great hindrance in spiritual life is that we look for big things to do, when Jesus simply took a towel and began to wash his disciples' feet...

Slowly, I am becoming okay with the fact that there are times where there is no illumination and no thrill, but just the daily round, the common task. Routine is God's way of saving us between our times of inspiration. He will always provide the thrilling moments, but we need to learn to live in the domain of drudgery. I guess we need to learn to "collect the manna".

Labels: Erika's Life Updates, Spiritual Life

Monday, May 07, 2007
Speaking in Tongues

Has anyone ever heard anyone speak in tongues? Or actually spoken in tongues themselves? Sometime when I have more time on my hands, I'd like to get into this subject...but for now I'd like to hear some feedback/experiences you have had with this.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Friday, May 04, 2007
On Being Joyful and Content

This past week has been so amazing for me! Nothing earth shattering happened, in fact, nothing even slightly significant happened. But I have been feeling so full of life, full of the Holy Spirit. I feel as though it is dripping out every part of me! I am content and full of joy and in love with living for and serving God. I am finally free! I have two poems from Bradley Hathaway here for you to read; they pretty much describe how I feel.

On Being Joyful and Content
I'm ecstatic!
And my thoughts are uncontrollably sporadic!
Yet centered around one center: Joy.

In plush ripe tones
joy is rushing through my bones!
If joy were a color, it would be purple, pastel, pretty.
Like old women and young children
both wear on easter
Smiling while having deviled eggs
and drinking kool-aid

Chasing blown bubbles
in the backyard
The young ones' distracting hats
fly off...And the old ones laugh a contagious laughter that is to be shared by everyone there

The sun shines down upon them
as all of their physical imperfections
gleam beautifully, and inside, inside I feel like this!
and I look outside my window
and imagine the future: purple, pastel, pretty moments of joy
that I will one day have with my husband.
My children.
My friends.
My family.

I really look forward to those moments.
But I am thankful for the one that I am having right now.
This morning.
Alone.
On my couch.

Overwhelmed by joy.

I Felt Really Good This Day, Yes
You’re pouring your love all over me and it’s dripping off the tops and sides and bottoms and middles of trees full of splendid little busy bees about doing your purpose how can this be? That you’ve let my heart to see and experience and take in and now to sing… sing sing sing about your love to everybody anybody or the somebody that’s considered a nobody but they are special to thee and for that I thank thee that these things have been shown to me.

Keep this mercy falling down down and this grace falling down down… on the top of my scalp dripping off of my nose down around my bellybutton all the way to my pinky toe cuticle that you made and for that it is cool. Sometimes I play the fool but still your love is all around, sprouting from the ground here and there and everywhere especially on this floor that I now stand.

And how amazingly awesome is your plan that cannot be thwarted by any man no matter how big or strong or ugly or evil he be, because through you is victory. And it’s victory that I now speak of and have to let out of my skin because for too long it’s been contained therein.

Lord I praise you because you are different and efficient. And you’ve tweaked my spirit just enough so that I can taste and see that you truly are good. Like a fresh picked pineapple for the first time in my mouth or the warmth of your sun on the back of my not warm neck on a not warm day. I praise your name today and tomorrow and forever.

Labels: Erika's Life Updates, Spiritual Life

Monday, April 30, 2007
The Answer to the Question

A couple days ago, I was wondering how I could become righteous...and I found the answer: I already am. "God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God" (2 Corinthians 5:21). The one who trusts in Christ becomes “the righteousness of God in Him” as Christ becomes a part of him. Because of Christ, anyone who trusts, has faith, and believes also becomes all that God requires a man to be, all that he could never be by himself. That is amazing; that is grace.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Sunday, April 22, 2007
Righteousness

Once again, I'm finding it quite interesting how everything, from every aspect of my life seems to tie together. Just last week, I came across this verse in Romans that really struck me...and then Shaleen mentioned it to me in small groups. And then Mr. Nickel brought up the same subject in Christian Ethics. I love how God works!

That being said, I am actually finding this verse quite confusing:

"For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: The righteous will live by faith." (Romans 1:17).

What exactly is righteousness? I looked it up in the thesaurus and got "virtuous" and "pure". I know that God is both of these...but how can I be? I am flawed, imperfect, unfinished...

I long to be righteous, just like described in Isaiah 61 where it says: "[I will] bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor."

To me this verse paints such a beautiful picture: a lush, green tree with its branches spread wide under the sun. Kind of like the picture on my blog. I want to be a tree like that, evidence of God's redemptive work.

Hmm...this is just a thought, but maybe this is where Stellar Kart got that weird song, "Tree Climber" from...or you know, it could just be totally random!

He takes over my scars and I put my life in His.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Thursday, April 12, 2007
Lioness

So, this is Spring Break? I can't believe it snowed again, but I guess that's what you're in for when you live in Saskatchewan! At least it seems to be warming up now. So, it's been a little while again (where does the time go?) and I've got a bunch of ranting to do!

If two people are "in love", why do they have to continually progress farther sexually? I know it can feel different when you're in "the heat of the moment"...but can't we (especially as girls) have enough courage to stand up for our purity?

I know that one day I want to be able to give my whole self to my husband; to say to him, "I saved myself for you." This is proving to be more and more difficult, it seems, for anyone in such a sex-crazed culture. It is extremely easy to get sucked into a deeply physical relationship. I say this because I know some people who are there right now.

Personally, I don't think I want to go past holding hands, light kissing, etc. in any relationship I'm in. I don't think I would feel good about making out with someone I knew I wouldn't spend my life with. So if I get into that, I give everyone reading this permission to slap me across the face.

Temptation plays a big role in sexual purity...and it can be hard to overcome. But look into the Bible and you'll see that Jesus overcame temptation by praying and with scripture in Matthew 4. Later in Matthew 26:41, he tells the disciples to "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the body is weak." Isn't that true? I know what I want to do, and I'm always trying hard to do good...but I'm so weak! I give in so easily sometimes.

I really like this verse in 1 Corinthians 10:13:

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Isn't that amazing! I don't know about you, but that gives me so much hope! While I'm on this topic, I thought I'd throw in some lyrics from Dead Poetic. Enjoy!

She's a god in her own right
She dims the room light
As she moves closer
We all move slower.

Tracing white lines
Sipping fine wines
We remember when purity wasn't dead.

In this darkness I can't remember when
We were stable, we were able!

The sex is the lioness,
"Queen of the Temple"
I look right in her eyes
Then down to her level.

She'll play unstable and let you get away
You get her faded but not her name.
You've taken something sacred and made it a game
Your perversions are wicked and fanning the flame.

The sex is the liar.
The sex is the LIAR.

He takes over my scars and I put my life in His.

Labels: Lyrics, Rant, Spiritual Life

Monday, March 05, 2007
Talk

So today during Accounting Mr. Peters comes up to me and asks if he can talk to me for a while. I wasn't really sure what to think...just because usually when a teacher wants to talk to you, you get in trouble or something like that (It's even scarier when it's the school counsellor!). But this was nothing like that: he took me out into the hall and told me he was blessed by me.

This was so incredible to hear: because that is exactly what I hope for in my life. Not for glory, but for the chance to be a light and to bless people, because I have been blessed unconditionally in my life. It's encouraging to hear that I have passed it on, even if only to one person.

We spent about 15 minutes just chatting about stuff we were learning and things along that line. God has such amazing timing! I love how everything in my life always connects together at exactly the right moment. It's not coincidental at all, no matter what other people may say.

Our main focus was on the many "Ifs" and "Thens" of the Bible: think about it, there really are a lot...indicating a free choice...indicating that "life to the full" only comes when we have faith enough to give ourselves completely to God and let him work through us.

If you are willing and obedient, then you will eat the best from the land.
-Isaiah 1:19

If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, then you can say to this mountain, "Move from here to there" and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
-Matthew 17:20

If you remain in me, and my words remain in you, then you may ask whatever you wish, and it will be give to you.

-John 15:7

There's a lot in that book...check it out sometime. What do you have to lose?

He takes over my scars and I put my life in His.

Labels: Erika's Life Updates, Spiritual Life

Monday, February 26, 2007
Faith

Sometimes you don't know how much you miss something until it is gone. We missed Christian Ethics for the past week because of Drivers Ed., and even though it can be a little boring just sitting there reading "Just Like Jesus" every day (which, by the way, is not a bad book...but the way we are reading it has made me become uninterested, to say the least), I have missed listening to Mr. Nickel's strange rants. He makes me think.

Personally, I have missed ranting lately too.

So here it goes: Mr. Nickel stated today that our faith is "completely irrational". This kind of stuck with me for the rest of the day...because I think he kind of stated the obvious. Could any faith be rational?

Think about it: with simple things that can be drawn out in black and white there is no need for a faith of any sort! This is a lame example, but think about the batteries you use in your iPod or mp3 player...eventually they will die, right? So you would never say, "I have faith that my batteries will die!" You would just sound like an idiot. Obviously, they will die; it's rational. It's just the way things work. So there is no faith in that, because faith is defined as being sure of the things we cannot see.

Now say for example you said, "I have faith that my batteries will never run out of juice!" You would sound like an idiot saying that too! This is an example of an irrational belief. It doesn't make sense by any laws of science that your batteries could live forever on their own. However, there is a solution: a charger. The Bible states that "faith without action is dead", and so is a rechargeable battery without a charger. What's the point? So why would you even choose to say "I'm a Christian, I believe what the Bible says" unless you actually choose to live it out?

Just like a charger can revive a battery, Christ can make our lives new. It takes a certain kind of faith to know that electricity is running through your outlet, and a similar type to trust that Christ is working to transform you, every day you allow him to. The results can be amazing...but only after you put the batteries in your iPod and press play.

So the fact that I would give up my scars to an "abstract being" in some minds may be totally irrational...but if it were not so, I would not have a faith.

He takes over my scars and I put my life in His.

Just a thought.

Labels: Spiritual Life

Sunday, December 03, 2006
Spirit (Prayer)

Spirit, fall fresh on me
Spirit, fall fresh on me
Hear my cry
Fill my life

I won't need anything but You

I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You
I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You

Wasted time
Is when I'm far from your truth
I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You

Spirit, come be my joy
Spirit, come be my joy
Be my song
Fill my lungs

I won't need anything but You

I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You
I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You

Wasted time
Is when I'm far from your truth
I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You

I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You
I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You

Wasted time
Is when I'm far from your truth
I've found all that I want
All that I long for in You.

I've found all that I want
All that I long for is You
I've found all that I want
All that I long for is You...

Labels: Lyrics, Spiritual Life

Sunday, October 01, 2006
Here it Comes, a Beautiful Collision...

Right now, I'm loving David Crowder's album "A Collision". It's showing me that worship shouldn't be about tradition, but it shouldn't be about trying to be all cool or high and mighty either...it's about coming to God honestly, with an open heart full of adoration for Him. So anyway, here's lyrics from a song of his, "A Beautiful Collision":

The breaking makes a sound I never knew could be so beautiful and loud, fury filled and we collide.
So courageous until now, fumbling and scared.
So afraid You'll find me out, alone here with my doubt.
Here it comes, a beautiful collision is happening now.
There seems to be no end to where You begin and there I am, now You and I collide.
Something circling inside, spaciously you fly, infinite and wide, like the moon and sky collide.
Here it comes, here it comes now...

I'm learning that God and I colliding truly is wonderful.

When my depravity meets His divinity it is a beautiful collision.

Labels: Lyrics, Spiritual Life

Saturday, September 30, 2006
The Chrysalids

I finished reading The Chrysalids a little while ago, and I just have to say, it's really strange. John Wyndham must have had a really strange mind. Or else he was just super creative, in a weird kind of way.

Anyway, I guess it just got me thinking: we are all mutants in this world. Especially as Christians. This is not my true home...it's like I'm David and living in Waknuk or travelling through the Fringes, and am always being chased down or having to always be on my guard. And then some day I'll get to the Sealand and I'll finally be home.

I can't wait for that, because I don't fit in that well in this world. And I can't wait to see Jesus! I think that when I first see him it will be like David and Rosalind and Petra staring in awe at that big blue bay...so unfamiliar [but they already know it], yet so wonderful and beautiful and magnificent. And amazing, like nothing else. I can't wait!

LISTENING TO: Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape; Underoath

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