Monday, January 23, 2006
Pages Yet to be Written

Ha. So today I'm feeling like my life is in a rut and I'm not totally sure why. Just a feeling, I guess. It's like I'm standing still and the world keeps on spinning right in front of me. It's the kind of feeling of how you just want to crawl into a dark hole and die, so you can forever be separated from the world or something.

Yeah, so the dark hole, that's where I am.

Okay, nevermind that was a bit of a lie. That's where I'm feeling I am, but it's only because there's no one there with me right now. Actually, I'm kind of in the opposite situation. For the first time I am actually beginning to realize that God has so much more in store for my life than I ever thought possible. It's like I'm finally able to see things in a whole new light: God's light.

Everything has been changing so fast and I hate it. But now I know why it's happening, and it's really for my benefit. God's just trying to start a new chapter in my book, and I think He has His work cut out for Him: there are a lot of pages left to be written.

Read it sometime, it's a real page turner.

Pages Yet to be Written, lyrics from Slow Coming Day

Another page turns in my life as I'm left here
Contemplating how the sky can appear so clear
Then turn gray and as the rain falls down on my face.
And as the rain falls on my face,
A darkness lingers.
And haunting memories plague my mind.
Vivid pictures of all the past times
And all I left behind, I left behind.
I'm standing in a crowd, yet I am all alone.
Trying to figure out just what went wrong here
And as the rain falls down on my face.
And as the rain falls on my face, a darkness lingers.
And haunting memories plague my mind.
Vivid pictures of all the past times and all I left behind,
I left behind.

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